Selfie – Esteem

I wish I could be confident enough to post a selfie. I don’t understand how a lot of people post selfies so easily. Yes, I know it’s just as simple as clicking the camera and posting the picture, but for me it’s a lot more than that. It’s a lot more taxing. When I look at a picture of myself, I am totally embarrassed of how I look. Others look totally gorgeous without even breaking a sweat. Whereas, I, literally, break a sweat trying to convince myself to post a picture. I wish I could love myself more. And it’s not because I’m afraid to be judged or labelled as “not good enough” by others (or maybe it is. hmm…), it’s that I label myself “not good enough” to begin with. Don’t get me wrong there are days where I pass by the mirror and say “Hey you look pretty decent today”, but I want to turn that into “Heeeey gorgeous! Lookin’ extra fiiiine today!” Maybe a bit excessive, but it would be really nice to hear, wouldn’t it?
— I wish there was a way to make my frontostriatal pathway stronger and more active. The frontostriatal pathway is where self-esteem lives in the brain. I know, I looked it up. {:

So, this is why I made this place. I thought if I had a space that could–that would reflect me–I would be forced or rather have a reason to share more of me. I’d be able to see myself, my thoughts and be less afraid to show myself, quite literally show my face. I don’t know if I’m making any sense here or if this makes sense to anyone out there. It doesn’t matter anyway, bettering yourself doesn’t have to matter to anyone but you.

I hope this experiment works.

Stay Happy! I know I’ll try.

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